Tuesday, February 4, 2014

Page a Day: One Hundred Fifty Six



             Yeh qualgum penjur, Jerem Cozak had said, back in the Well of Faith’s Healing. Let oceans enfold you. It’s not a hard language to pick up, your basic Thaeronian. 

            But no one else had ever said that to me here: let oceans enfold you. And I couldn’t recall that phrase from anywhere in Earth’s archives. Not a farewell, then. Not ritual at all.

            Your enemies are not of this world, he had also said. The Augers are opposition only.

            Yeah. I shivered. Right. If the equatorial air was any warmer, I surely did not feel it.

            Ki shaking her head. You have blackbrain, Cassan Vala. And you’re going to have it for the rest of your life.

            You must/ go down, said Suriel the Niskivim.

            There are too many voices in my head! I’d yelled at Ash.

            There are different kinds of bloodfish, Ki had said. In the ocean they form vast schools.  

            Yeah.  It’s just I hadn’t seen any, not in all this time.

            And why the hell was it so damned cold?

            All around me, the fog sat on its haunches. The haze shone a little lighter now. Came the dawn, then. Hours I’d been standing there. Time to get Ash up. He had work to do. I slipped back in the tent to find him snoring luxuriously. Men. No matter what, they think they’ve accomplished something. He stretched out across my sheets like an animal king. I clapped and kicked, enjoying myself. He came up showing me entirely the wrong kind of eyes.

            “Lieutenant!” I said. “Get my valkyrie. And Nogilian.”
 
          He looked at me like I was mad. But he pulled his clothes on. I said no more. Exeunt my personal aide and senior intelligence officer.

Monday, February 3, 2014

Page a Day: One Hundred Fifty Five



              “Then that means its more than just you and the khrall. There are other species. How many ren’al are there?”

            He was almost gone.

            “As many as were/will be are necessary now/then.”

            “Necessary?” I asked. “For what? What are they for? I know what they can do, but you never told me what you used them for.”

            But I was talking to my tent. The wind whispered its names against the walls. I wept, not  knowing why. I’d gotten information but no more answers. I’d asked the wrong questions. I’d found out more about the war among the stars and nothing about the one inside my skull. I still hadn’t sorted out if I was talking to Suriel or the Swarm or the blackbrain or only to myself – or if that difference mattered.                

            Three of them, I thought. One for me, one for Jerem Cozak, one for someone else. Who? I wondered. Who was the other one for? And what would another Niskivim be like? The ones I’d seen on the battlefield all looked like Suriel, but in person he felt utterly unique, like there could not possibly be another of his kind.  

            A ghost of a thought. I didn’t feel awful at the moment. I had been too caught up in everything. Distraction helped. That’s when I conceived of sending for my personal aide. The next night, we wrestled almost till the dawn. He had the youth and stamina, I had the inchoate yearning. Flip the damn switch. A couple times. It took a while. And didn’t feel like much anyway.

            After, I went to resume my customary vigil. He slept. I let him be. There are no secrets, anyway, not among the army of the dead. The White Swarm won’t allow it. I slid through the tent flap to see a mournful fog. Warm air come from the waist of the world. There was no sound. It was like the earth was wrapped in gauze. The dripping awning remained high enough to permit standing, if one was of no more than ordinary height. I stood. I saw little further than the edge of the cliffs.

Sunday, February 2, 2014

These Essays: The Language of Empathy



So whatever fruit Scripture bears it is going to bear through its vines, its medium: language. Like any book, Scripture comes to us in tongues. If the New Testament, or any Scripture, invokes, it invokes through language; if it imagines, it imagines through words; if it encourages empathy, it does so through the world occasioned by the text. How, exactly, does it do so? What is it that words actually do?

These question, though a fascination of modernity and postmodernity, are not novel; we have explored Augustine’s notion of signa and res in some depth. But our contemporary innovation has been, for the most part, to emphasize two things: on one hand, that the link between sign and signified is neither fixed nor essential, and on the other, that we change signa and res alike by referring through to and through them. We have acknowledged , in short, that we are quite a bit more involved in language than we once wanted to be.

This realization, that we are bound to the languages in which we are also immersed, once occasioned a considerable amount of cultural anxiety. And it has subsequently occasioned an even greater amount of complex philosophical, psychological, and theoretical work. Naturally, such varied and sophisticated work has proven to be of varying degrees of usefulness to Christians reading Scripture.

But, for our purposes, the work of three scholars who suggest, despite their differences, that language is tensive or unstable as a result of a surplus or saturation of meaning may be most helpful. If they are correct, then the linguistic form of Scripture coincides with the wise content of Scripture to describe humans and their psyches in a complex, tensive, and holistic manner.          

And if they are correct, words properly do serve as empathic, holistic connection to others, and the interpretation of words remains essential to healing transformation. Christians will not only have community because of a book. Christians will have, though the guidance of the Holy Spirit, something like communion with a book.

So Christians who read the Bible would be fortunate if our understanding through language was not itself accidental, if language had not just happened to be a primary way in which humans engage the world and one another. Indeed, if God has had any hand in it, either within its structures or by its very nature, language would seek and foster human understanding.      

Far from betraying our objectivity, if words actually tied us to one another, if other people were the res toward which all our prolixity signaed, language would be boon rather than bane. If this were so, Sausuure’s famed split between signifier and signified would address not the inherent failure of language to mean what we have always thought it meant, but would refer instead to the search for communication, connection, and understanding that we share for simply being human. Empathy would find is very voice in language.

A number of theorists interested in psychology and language alike have gestured profoundly in this direction. The Freudian feminist Julia Kristeva has suggested that “our souls have been flattened and emptied by the rhythms and images of our culture.” She has written of the pragmatic break between affect and cognition, emotional drive and cerebral signification that the theoretical breach between sign and signifier symptomizes.

Naming cognitive understanding as the symbolic, and physical drive or yearning as the semiotic, Kristeva recommends their reconciliation through therapy. Such healing will look less like fusion and more like tensive balance as the flattened self of modernity uses words intentionally to articulate its desires and satisfactions in healthy, holistic relation.

So it is certainly fascinating, to we who have read Augustine, that Kristeva would articulate the moment of individuation as the “thetic” break. This refers to the alienation between the self and the other when the self realizes that it does not have what it desires and is different from it.

Surely, if we are going to find an empathy that moves in more than one direction, we will not find it here. Indeed, in some ways the Kristevan interpreter is still more alone than the Augustinian one, for there is no mimesis here, no imitation of the other, only self-expression in healthy or pathological ways. Language in Kristeva’s scheme always reaches for the other, but seeks mostly to ensure that the self is fully understood.

While we would certainly applaud such holism of identity, language in this sense does not seem empathic as much as the yearning for empathy. Christians who seek to love their neighbors as themselves, especially as they read, explain, and hear proclaimed the Christians scriptures, would rightly feel a disjoint here. Kristeva, it might seem, has only gone halfway to the neighbor, or to love.


Page a Day: One Hundred Fifty Four



            I thought about that. “The ren’al,” I said. “It changes the nature of time? Or of the universe?”
            
            Suriel shrugged. Too close to call, he meant. Nothing you want in enemy hands regardless.
           
            "I don’t get it,” I said. “You’re so powerful. A human has it. A human. It’s on Kalnar, out toward the galactic rim. Why don’t you all just go pick it up?”
            
            “War /diminishes/ everyone. We were/are so many/then. Now/we will be less. They/are less. When he dies/ they will be/did take it.”
            
            “And you can’t stop them? You said there were only nine of them. How many are there of you?”
            
            Suriel’s eyes met mine, broad pools of limpid light. “/Three.”
            
            I thought about that, too. “But there had to be thirty when...” I trailed off. My own eyes went wide. “Just to save my city, you sacrificed the last thirty of your entire species?”
            
            “We/ owe. We/ fail. We/ did not see you. When Malakan will have/came/ we/ do not see him. We were/will not be ready.”
            
             I could see it, then. I don’t know if it was something Suriel sent or not. A nameless, barren rock of a world without atmosphere, the last Niskivim defending their memorial post, golden forms shining against the darkness. Through the centuries, through the calm ages after the war that shook the stars. A few dying, a few being born, most just waiting, keeping watch. Then the sudden absence of the treasure that they kept, because the creature that took it was too simple and weak to be perceived. They expected the khrall. They never suspected a human being to come there.  
            
             “Wait again,” I said. “You guarded them after the war. But I’ve seen the star fields. They’re still changing. And it’s coming this way.”  

           Suriel started to fade. “The war that will/have always/never been shaping the universe will not end/has already ended until it/will/already have consumed all things. It waxes/and it wanes.”

            Just like you, I thought. Already I could see clear through him.

Saturday, February 1, 2014

Page a Day: One Hundred Fifty Three



            Suriel looked at me, eyes wide. I felt the grief of ten thousand years. Regret you can’t shake off. Remorse that nothing in the universe is ever going to expiate. It wasn’t unfamiliar. “We always/never knew you were/will be here.”
            I thought about that. The Niskivim might have trouble understanding us. But they are not cruel. 
            I let out a breath. “Weren’t even on the map, huh? Okay. I believe you. I always thought your kin were holding back outside Cibola. I mean, hand to hand combat? You have to be more capable than that. But what are the khrall? And how the hell did they get away the first time?”   
            Shame washed over Suriel and me, the darkness that hides all secrets. “There were/will be two/ powers. Niskivim share/grow stronger the more of /us/ there are/will be becoming. Khrall steal/get stronger/ the less of them there are/were begin to be. Only nine were/won’t remain.”
            Less sense. There was something he wasn’t telling me. “I mean, what are you fighting for? What do you want? What’s it all about?”
            Suriel ducked his head toward me, a strange sliding motion. “What/ was is will be/  ren’al?”
            I knew that word. Memories of my dreams, my hibernation visions of Suriel sitting outside my cockpit on the way to Thaeron. Of being someone else. Malakan, the man who would bring the new Profusion, the very first Auger. “A cube,” I said. “That contains many other cubes of identical size. Probably an infinite number. It unfolds like a flower. It promises the secrets of the universe. It seems to give them. It seems to have...strange relationships with both space and....say, it’s like you, isn’t it?”
            Suriel sat back. “Time not/line/ not circle. More/ dimensions. /Sphere. /Irregular.” He reclined further, satisfied.  
            “That doesn’t help!” I said. “How does that connect to anything?’
            Suriel looked frustrated. I felt dumb. “One/all can/not change the /center,” he said.